I Need a Job... !!!
Yes... I have come to face the reality that I do... not cos I’m in desperate need for the money (yet)… I’m sadly still living of my parents (and perhaps I will for a long time… I don’t see myself married in the near future...if ever)… but cos it’s turning me into a recluse…!!
I’ve come to realise when people can’t judge you by virtue of how much weight you’ve gained they usually tend to look at how (un)successful you are and the best case scenario is when your both...fat and unsuccessful… and well since I’m also not at my slimmest best … I’m the ideal person these ‘judgers’ would like to meet ..:(..
I was pretty ‘successful’ in school n college... but back then ‘successful’ had a very different meaning...it depended on a lot else other than employment... (cos everyone was unemployed...) it was mostly on how popular you were and since I had Coco with me I always had her friends and my friends so looking popular was never an issue…then came university where due to the common unemployed factor people's 'successful' rating depended quite shallow-ly on their parents success ..so I made it there also .. along with the other benchmarks... had the perfect figure (for once)..perfect scores... perfect set of friends... and as silly as it sounds. . the perfect laptop and the perfect accommodation ..lol.. To keep up this image I’ve left of myself I now avoid them all ..!! No matter how much they might pretend that they envy the fact that im not working and am thus ‘chilling’( I hate this word) I’m sure in their heads they’re secretly calculating how many people they can share my unemployment information with ..(call me paranoid but I sense its true )…
Recently I discovered this online community called Orkut..!!.. almost everyone I know is on it.. people from school… people from college ...people from university .. Coco..Garry.. Fatty..Catty .. Jewel.. all of us are on it …but while everyone else’s friends list includes almost everyone in the above category who they know along with people from their jobs.(I don’t have a job hence no people from there.. hence the title of my post)...my list is stuck at 27 .. make that 27 safe people who either already know of my unemployed status or those who don’t pry into my life in public ..(orkut is a highly public domain)… I palpitate every time someone sends me a message asking me what I’m upto and I try and work my way around not answering that question in everyway possible without making it too obvious and if the person is kind enough to only send me a friend request I shamelessly ignore it till it goes away.. lest I add them and they take it as an invitation to make pc which includes the dreaded question..:(.. Even though my need for a job has more to do with just answering questions from people on Orkut (of all things) it would be worth getting it just to add people on my list with reckless abandon...!!
Its been 3 years since I graduated from university and ive been employed only 3.5 months out of those blissful 3 years ..till now I have somehow I managed to fend off the question cos I always had an excuse as to why I am not gainfully employed…(read not employed at all )…its either been a broken leg.. broken wrist (not mine)... wedding (again not mine) or just got back from working in L and am looking around but now I think people have realised I've been using that excuse over a year now.. especially since when I say I got back in October and they're like but you've been here a while and then the truth prevails and I'm like last October ..(I'm a sad sad liar).. in effect I’ve totally run out of excuses..so I don’t make a very friendly person in the party circuit at all .. I’ve become the typical introvert.. who hides behind the glass of coke..(not even a real party drink .. boo hoo) or who suddenly remembers something important and has to get up to make a call and needs go inside ..and especially so when anyone approaches with small talk..
It’s become so bad even filling up forms is a pain…there’s always the question of occupation and im not sure sleeping or watching television will qualify as an answer…and since I love travelling and have reached the age where I cannot pass of as a dependent anymore there are a lot of these forms to fill.. and if I wanna ever get out of the country or be a member anywhere I first need to get me that thing called a job !!..
Then of course I realise if I execute my back up plan and marry Goldy I will have to get one anyway... there is no way we will survive with a single income... ours will have to be a double income household…!!.. Not that I am a spend thrift or am totally into designer wear and expensive things though about a few things I am quite particular... if it’s a car it should be the best...if it’s a watch I want the best ..if we’re staying at a hotel it has to be the best ..thanks to my parents I have my needs taken care off but even when im not with them (i.e. when im with Goldy) with much effort I have almost always had my way (not that you’ll ever catch Goldy buying me a car or a watch.. asked him to buy me a designer bag for my birthday and then had to settle with giving him the URL for eBay... the bag still has not even been ordered.. hmph!!) when it comes to the hotels despite goldy reasoning if we’re together it doesn’t matter where we stay (he’s sensing a luxury pattern in my accommodation habits and he’s trying to rid me off it ..) I try and get to a half way decent place…it’s worked everytime except this once where due to lack of any options we had to stay in a… eeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww... non suite..!!!!! thankfully it was just for the night and I am spookily a very seldom bathroom user…(so much so Goldy at times wonders if I even have a bowel..he’d worry about my uterus too if it weren't for the conspiring glorious 5 days almost always overlapping with the days I get to be with him.. hmph!! ) so it wasn’t so bad… but where I stayed in this unacceptable place cos I didn’t want to leave him for even a second (cos he was in L for just the night cos of an appointment at 8 in the morning and then back to S) thanks to the wonders associated with a communal bathroom I spent half n hour waiting for the toilet to flush …Goldy after finding me waiting outside the bathroom asked me to forget about it saying it was a common bathroom the next person would flush.. but then I saw myself in the next person coming to ‘not a fresh bowl’ and eeeewwwwwwww… needless to say I waited till I flushed(even though it was just number 1 .. heheheh.. ) … okie okie toooo much information …!!!
I knew I would digress... thankfully I made my point and then digressed(and how)……!!!
I know no one reads this blog.. but in case anyone chances upon it ..if you have any business ideas…( did i forget to mention I don’t like giving interviews and since no one will employ me without one I think I may have to start my own business..).. please pass them on in the comments section .. (this way I will atleast register comments ..)
p.s. Just when I was putting up this post Garry sent me a link to do with past life and the 1st question..
1. What's your current profession?
Sigh!!!!
Added later: The day this post went up.. Coco and Slit (cos her eyes r slit like a Chinese) went to a career counsellor.. but I chose to sit and watch Super man Returns instead.. I’ll never understand me …
Added just 2 days later: Coco and Slit both went for interviews and got through.. what make's me feel like a bigger loser is that Slit is a fresher and she's gonna be making more than most people I know who have even upto 3 years of experience .. (am happy for her .. but very very sad sad for me- I don't even get offered half the amount ..yes yes.. I have been for a couple of interviews.. that's when I realised.. I don't like them ..)
I’ve come to realise when people can’t judge you by virtue of how much weight you’ve gained they usually tend to look at how (un)successful you are and the best case scenario is when your both...fat and unsuccessful… and well since I’m also not at my slimmest best … I’m the ideal person these ‘judgers’ would like to meet ..:(..
I was pretty ‘successful’ in school n college... but back then ‘successful’ had a very different meaning...it depended on a lot else other than employment... (cos everyone was unemployed...) it was mostly on how popular you were and since I had Coco with me I always had her friends and my friends so looking popular was never an issue…then came university where due to the common unemployed factor people's 'successful' rating depended quite shallow-ly on their parents success ..so I made it there also .. along with the other benchmarks... had the perfect figure (for once)..perfect scores... perfect set of friends... and as silly as it sounds. . the perfect laptop and the perfect accommodation ..lol.. To keep up this image I’ve left of myself I now avoid them all ..!! No matter how much they might pretend that they envy the fact that im not working and am thus ‘chilling’( I hate this word) I’m sure in their heads they’re secretly calculating how many people they can share my unemployment information with ..(call me paranoid but I sense its true )…
Recently I discovered this online community called Orkut..!!.. almost everyone I know is on it.. people from school… people from college ...people from university .. Coco..Garry.. Fatty..Catty .. Jewel.. all of us are on it …but while everyone else’s friends list includes almost everyone in the above category who they know along with people from their jobs.(I don’t have a job hence no people from there.. hence the title of my post)...my list is stuck at 27 .. make that 27 safe people who either already know of my unemployed status or those who don’t pry into my life in public ..(orkut is a highly public domain)… I palpitate every time someone sends me a message asking me what I’m upto and I try and work my way around not answering that question in everyway possible without making it too obvious and if the person is kind enough to only send me a friend request I shamelessly ignore it till it goes away.. lest I add them and they take it as an invitation to make pc which includes the dreaded question..:(.. Even though my need for a job has more to do with just answering questions from people on Orkut (of all things) it would be worth getting it just to add people on my list with reckless abandon...!!
Its been 3 years since I graduated from university and ive been employed only 3.5 months out of those blissful 3 years ..till now I have somehow I managed to fend off the question cos I always had an excuse as to why I am not gainfully employed…(read not employed at all )…its either been a broken leg.. broken wrist (not mine)... wedding (again not mine) or just got back from working in L and am looking around but now I think people have realised I've been using that excuse over a year now.. especially since when I say I got back in October and they're like but you've been here a while and then the truth prevails and I'm like last October ..(I'm a sad sad liar).. in effect I’ve totally run out of excuses..so I don’t make a very friendly person in the party circuit at all .. I’ve become the typical introvert.. who hides behind the glass of coke..(not even a real party drink .. boo hoo) or who suddenly remembers something important and has to get up to make a call and needs go inside ..and especially so when anyone approaches with small talk..
It’s become so bad even filling up forms is a pain…there’s always the question of occupation and im not sure sleeping or watching television will qualify as an answer…and since I love travelling and have reached the age where I cannot pass of as a dependent anymore there are a lot of these forms to fill.. and if I wanna ever get out of the country or be a member anywhere I first need to get me that thing called a job !!..
Then of course I realise if I execute my back up plan and marry Goldy I will have to get one anyway... there is no way we will survive with a single income... ours will have to be a double income household…!!.. Not that I am a spend thrift or am totally into designer wear and expensive things though about a few things I am quite particular... if it’s a car it should be the best...if it’s a watch I want the best ..if we’re staying at a hotel it has to be the best ..thanks to my parents I have my needs taken care off but even when im not with them (i.e. when im with Goldy) with much effort I have almost always had my way (not that you’ll ever catch Goldy buying me a car or a watch.. asked him to buy me a designer bag for my birthday and then had to settle with giving him the URL for eBay... the bag still has not even been ordered.. hmph!!) when it comes to the hotels despite goldy reasoning if we’re together it doesn’t matter where we stay (he’s sensing a luxury pattern in my accommodation habits and he’s trying to rid me off it ..) I try and get to a half way decent place…it’s worked everytime except this once where due to lack of any options we had to stay in a… eeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww... non suite..!!!!! thankfully it was just for the night and I am spookily a very seldom bathroom user…(so much so Goldy at times wonders if I even have a bowel..he’d worry about my uterus too if it weren't for the conspiring glorious 5 days almost always overlapping with the days I get to be with him.. hmph!! ) so it wasn’t so bad… but where I stayed in this unacceptable place cos I didn’t want to leave him for even a second (cos he was in L for just the night cos of an appointment at 8 in the morning and then back to S) thanks to the wonders associated with a communal bathroom I spent half n hour waiting for the toilet to flush …Goldy after finding me waiting outside the bathroom asked me to forget about it saying it was a common bathroom the next person would flush.. but then I saw myself in the next person coming to ‘not a fresh bowl’ and eeeewwwwwwww… needless to say I waited till I flushed(even though it was just number 1 .. heheheh.. ) … okie okie toooo much information …!!!
I knew I would digress... thankfully I made my point and then digressed(and how)……!!!
I know no one reads this blog.. but in case anyone chances upon it ..if you have any business ideas…( did i forget to mention I don’t like giving interviews and since no one will employ me without one I think I may have to start my own business..).. please pass them on in the comments section .. (this way I will atleast register comments ..)
p.s. Just when I was putting up this post Garry sent me a link to do with past life and the 1st question..
1. What's your current profession?
Sigh!!!!
Added later: The day this post went up.. Coco and Slit (cos her eyes r slit like a Chinese) went to a career counsellor.. but I chose to sit and watch Super man Returns instead.. I’ll never understand me …
Added just 2 days later: Coco and Slit both went for interviews and got through.. what make's me feel like a bigger loser is that Slit is a fresher and she's gonna be making more than most people I know who have even upto 3 years of experience .. (am happy for her .. but very very sad sad for me- I don't even get offered half the amount ..yes yes.. I have been for a couple of interviews.. that's when I realised.. I don't like them ..)
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